"Empowering Sexual Abuse and Trauma Healing: Discover Your Original Design.”

Hi, friends! I know it can be terrifying and sad to go back and think about the girl you were before all of this started, but it's okay because there is no fear in love, and God is excited about going on this journey with you.

I want to tell you this journey is everlasting. You will have great revelations now and will continue to get them as you move forward, living this epic adventure.

So maybe you're like I was and brand new to this original design concept? That is okay! Remember, the enemy came to steal, kill, and destroy, and God came to give abundant life. All of your original design is going to overflowing with abundant life.

I used to think the addictions I experienced were just part of my original design. I thought because I was chubby since an infant that God designed me that way, but that was false, abuse since an infant led to my comfort by food, and I have no guilt or shame surrounding that because, as an infant, it was in no way shape my fault.

I thought I was a tomboy because I always dressed like a boy refusing to wear dresses or skirts, but now I can see clearly I was scared to wear them. They left me feeling too exposed and unsafe. I believed that I was designed to be attracted to girls at one point, but now I know I was just scared of all males trying to touch me. I thought anxiety, worry, and depression were only part of my design because I inherited it from my family. But actually, did you know when you break down the word genetics it boils down to a family habit? None of this was my original design; it was a learned behavior.

So, how do you find out your original design? First, pray! Invite the Holy Spirit to take you on a journey of healing from sexual abuse, trauma, and sexual betrayal. Don't end this journey after this, but continue asking him to reveal who Abba created you to be, even as a sexual abuse victim. Before you lay your head down at night, declare dreams and visions over you about your original design! And remember, the dreams and visions will always align with his Character because we are his creation in his image!

Next, think back to your younger years, before the sexual abuse and trauma occurred. If you have trusted loved ones, ask them what you were like at an age before the abuse or trauma occurred? It's okay if you don't have access to this information, I didn't, and the abuse began as an infant. You can invite the Holy Spirit, and he will start showing you glimpses of things you enjoyed, despite being a sexual abuse victim. As an example, all of growing up, I swore I would never have kids. I didn't want them. This thought was a facade to cover a fear of intimacy that I had. The Holy Spirit reminded me of this baby I carried everywhere as a young girl. I had a natural nurturing in me and a desire for babies. My entire outlook on parenting has changed since then. I have always loved my kids, but all of a sudden parenting feels ingrained in me.

For me, the Holy Spirit slowly started bringing stuff back to memory, kind of like on Finding Dory. I started piecing together parts of who I was as a child before fear took over. One of my favorite things he reminded me of was how I loved to do show & tell at school, which I think is awesome because this is what Live Called Well and ARISE is! I went on a journey of sexual abuse healing and found out how to live my life completely myself and completely free, and now I am here showing and telling you!

Holy Spirit also showed me my style, this may sound silly, but I realized I could just be me, even as a sexual abuse victim. I love the beach, and I am sporty by design, so I finally stopped trying to keep up with the latest fashion trends and decided just to be me. Most of the time, you will catch me in beachy casual clothes with sandals on! He even showed me my original hair color! Now hear me right! I have nothing against dying hair, but for so long, I dyed my hair, searching for acceptance within myself, trying to look like everyone else. After I had my first son, everyone started asking me where he got his hair color and I had no clue! So I decided I am not going to dye my hair and see what happens! Friends, you would not believe how much I love my hair and how many people compliment me and ask about my color! It turns out my original design is pretty cool!

God has highlighted to me all the different fun things he formed during creating me and how much he loves them, despite the sexual abuse and trauma I experienced. He has shown me I like dresses and it's okay to feel like his princess, he has shown me I have a love for writing, speaking, teaching, praying (even though my childhood was not around God, I can always remember praying to him). Abba has shown me I love physical exercise, that I am a competitor, not against others, but over the enemy. ABBA has shown me I secretly like to be introverted at times, even though I love the community and tend to be an extrovert. He has shown me that I love watching birds..so random, I actually like being a mom and wife even though I swore I was made not to do either. He has shown me that I love paintings and worship. He just continues to remind me of it all. Abba even showed me the original design he had for me in my mind and throughout childbirth, which led to an all-natural pain-free birth! Seriously you guys, Heaven on earth is real, and his original design is so fun!

So please be encouraged by discovering your original design, even as a sexual abuse victim. Take some time today and before you enter Part #2 (coming soon) of the original design to soak in his presence, to just rest and journal what you hear him tell you about your original design. His voice sounds different to all. Some say they can't listen to him, but usually, that just means too many other voices are too loud. Some of the ways he talks to me are through music, through memories, through nature, through his word, through a sermon, a friend, through a child, through art, through dreams, through prophetic words, through moments, the list could go on, but he is always talking, and the Holy Spirit is still showing you how he is!

Just remember his yoke is easy, and his burden is so light, so if you feel heavy due to sexual abuse, trauma, or sexual betrayal, pause, and soak in his presence and worship!

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